Grieving ova his TRIAL result!!!

ARGHHH!!!!!!!! i dunno how shud i react after i got back my papers back!! HUH!! this time, i really need to say those F n S words even though i shudnt have to.... it was pretty sad when thinking bout my really bad result to be compared with other ppl especially with my classmates... i know imma loser, but i really dun expect dat i will be getting dat kinda shit result especially my chem... for da vry first time in my life, i FAILED!!!! ya Allah... what da heck  is goin' on??????? final is a bout one month from now on... im still yet to be conscious about getting 5A's in all subjects for da final... indeed, this is 4 the sake of my scholarship, my parents and also my future of becoming a doctor... now onwards, i dun really know where Allah is going to send me whether in aussie, india or in my own my country... i know Allah has  a really good plan for me.. I dun have any rights to decide where i'll be going but of course i've put a lot of effort and lastly tawakkaltualaAllah... isnyaAllah, He will guide us on da right track...

at all times therefore, this trial has truly challenged me physically n mentally

september 30, 5.54 p.m

continue from yesterday...
HUH! i just cudnt finish blogging as i was bothered by my housemate... i ws breaking my fast with other fren and going straight to surau... thne, my fren at intec says to me about my status... he said " oi, status brani mati kau kt fb! haha" then, i started to freak out when i heard that... that status " aku lah manusia terhensem!" was just SHIT!! how come it can come out from my wall... so far, i hve never posted any status on my wall... haish.... i was really embarassed and humiliated bcos of that unwanted status... ppl kept giving their comments... luckily, ive deleted that status... LOL..... RELAX,.... dont get mad... be patient... I know i shudnt blame hafiz bcos maybe he wanted to "GURAU" ngan aku...  but, i still cant accept the way he has done to me... ngucap byk2..
 i thought i can believe in him, but i was wrong... i shudnt let him used my lap but atst, it was my fault for not logging out from my fb account... so, thanks alot HAFIZ for screwing up my day n night... today was really lame... i dunno why.. i felt like to avoid from other ppl and dun wanna see them... even wilson i hvent talked to him for a week... i know ive been doing so many wrong...  HUH!! okay, calm down... let by gone be by gone.... i dun wanna think bout it anymore.... i dun care what ppl say about me... most importantly,ur innocent... besides, i just got my math paper back.... oh, i wished i failed bcos i did so badly.... nseb ckup2 makan jek tuk passing mark... but, i still feel so bad.... the mark was really dissappointing and discouraging.... that cud be improved and one point that i shud make is never give up... its nver too late to try.... so , ive to keep trying and trying till da final.... i know to get atar 95% n above is an uphill task, but its possible to achieve that....trial has tought to be prepared and not to study till da last minute... okay lar, gotta stop.... END!